Well, I was kind of sad for 2013 to be over. You may ask yourself why? You experienced such heartache weren't you ready for a new year?
Well, quite frankly the year itself had nothing to do with it and secondly I was sad about a new year... new year mom was not there...one she did not make it to. So 2014 for me sounded scary because it meant time was pushing on without her. I was stuck still looking around and backwards but the world was spinning around me and time was flying by me already.
We decided to head to the lake house for a few days to get away and try to again be "normal".
It was Mark, Stacy, Papa[my dad], Hannah, Dora, Drew, the boys and I.
Again sad...because you find yourself feeling so sad we are all together and mom was not there it was such a gap.
It was very cold and Drew got to do one of his favorite things, not joking, build a fire. It started in the morning and burned til night. We ate ribs, pizza, chicken and more while we were there. Healthy, right?
We sat around the fire and talked, watched movies and played board games as usual.
I remember spacing in and out staring at the fire letting my mind run rampant. Stacy would catch me and say "you doing okay?" She knew the answer I gave was a lie.."oh yea..me? I'm fine yea" with a half smile.
She lost both of her parents young...so she knew.
We had a indoor snowball fights..fake of course but it was actually kind of fun and John Brady loved it.
We went to the old Cabbage Patch hospital and took walks too. We did the best we could considering. We also opened presents because Christmas was different for all of us this year we held off many presents and opened some there. We watched We are The Millers movie...and to be honest i think it was the first time I actually laughed in a while at some parts.
Kids...I remember grandpa doing trot trot with you both in his lap. JB, you really have always loved it and Beckett was just learning all about it! =)
No comments:
Post a Comment